This part of me

I don’t think I could explain it to someone who never felt it. I went a little while without it, not all that long really, but it felt like a long time.

I was ok without it, it didn’t dominate my thoughts, I just went on with life. I enjoyed other things.

But now I have it back, it feels good, really good. I feel whole again, like I am doing what I should be doing. It kind of seems like an addiction. But why wouldn’t you fill that part of you? Make yourself whole.

I will admit, it hasn’t brought me anything good. Well not that much really. Definitely not enough to outweigh all the bad it has brought me. But like I said, I can’t imagine living without it.